Why

I keep doing this to myself. 

I keep hurting myself in more ways then one. 

No one knows what I do and I refuse to open up to people about it even the ones close to me.

I guess I don't want them to worry about me. 

I don't like people worrying about MY problems when they have problems of their own.

I don't want to be a burden to them.

I really don't know what I want.

I want something
I just don't know what it is.

All I know is that I keep hurting myself for something I don't even know myself.

It doesn't quite make sense but I have so much in my mind.

Maybe a good nights sleep will help. 

Oh well good night =/

Peace. 

Trust

Trust. Pretty big word if you ask me.
I guess when it comes to any relationship trust is definitely one of the big "requirements" to a good relationship.
For me, right now I trusted someone and that someone trusted me, but at the moment that trust is broken because of my idiotic thinking.
It seems pretty hopeless for me to gain back that trust we had.
If only I didn't do what I did we would still have this relationship but that is in the past and I can't change it.
For now, all I can do is build the trust back by changing the way I think, and how I act.
I just hope in the future we can have this relationship that I sought out for.
Because really, you make me really truly happy and I know that I made you happy.
I don't want to lose you....

"I'll be something all you wanted"
=)
Heh and your right there can't be an us if there is no trust.
Cause you can't spell trust without us. hahaha that was dumb.
Anyway as you can see trust is very important. If you want someone you have to learn to trust them or else you will end up like me.
Not a positive or a negative post mostly negative on my part haha.
Peace!

Summer Anime 2011

Ok now my last post was uhhh negative so I wanted to get back on track with life so heres something upbeat.
Now in my introduction(if u bothered to read it lol) one of my interest was anime and so heres the latest anime that is coming out in the summer. I didnt really get into anime last season due to me being distracted and occupied with other things I promise to get back into anime again like I once did

Now heres the current anime that is set to air.
Most of these look promising but heres a list of what i'm looking forward to watch:
1.Nurarihyon no Mago Sennen Makyou- The second season to Nurarihyon no Mago I liked the first season of the anime but felt that it was cut short and rushed to the end. Other then that I'm looking forward to the new season and the fact that both opening and ending songs for the first season was catchy XD.
2.Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu Ni- Again. Second Season to the first Baka to Test. The first one had absolutely rolling with laughter the characters are loveable ALL of them and the comedy is right on point. Looking forward to see what antics there going to come up with ^_^.
New anime that looks good to watch:
Appleseed XII
Usagi Drop
The Idolm@ster(I know XD)
Blood C
Mayo Chiki
R-15(The Syonpsis made me go WHAT! XD)
ONA/OVA/Movies:
1.Kore wa Zombie Desu ka!-Love the series ^_^
2.Fairy Tail Yousei Gakuen-Love the series as well but heres something different they're combining this OVA with another manga I fell in love with known as Yankee-kun to Megane-Chan(Flunk Punk Rumble) and I am super excited to see how they're going to animate it ^_^.
3.Air Gear-Needs to come out with a second season damn it!
4.KissXSis-Dont ask XD
5.Ao no Exorcist 
6.Hayate no Gotoku-Movie! Series is hilarious
7.Fullmetal Alchemists-One of those things you have to watch XP
Wow thats it! A long post lol but this season of anime just looks really good looking forward to it^_^
PEACE!!

Seriously

OK im going to rant on here >=(
Ok so there are problems in the house dealing with money like all families but to me this takes the cake.
Found this agency a few months ago. An agency where they find you a job for me. Now everything is going smoothly until today. Now a few weeks now they call me and asked me to go to work which is fine more money for me. Now today they called me again in the afternoon telling me theres no work today. Ok. Thats fine with me then. and now they call me at night and ask me if I can go to work  because apparently there is work for me.
I was thinking man they called me late when I have my sights on relaxing the whole day. When my parents told asked me what they asked i just refused to go to work today. Now they're all butt hurt because i refused to go to work once. ONCE!!! and now they're telling my things like
"whats gonna happen to us now"
"do u now want to go to work"
"I dont know anymore"
"Your just being lazy"
Really guys REALLY!!!! All because I refused once.
Damn it!!
I got heated up at the moment argued with my dad about how they're gonna fire me and questioning me why I dont want to work and stuff.
Called him out because my mom had a job in her hands and he told her no because "its too far" and shes taking care of an old man. So what I worked at freaking Anaheim and I live in Fontana.
Seriously just because one day i refused.
>=(
You can make it sound like the bad guy or whatever but its just..........